Monday, April 20, 2009

this sweater is itchy.

It's been a somewhat uninteresting life has left me zero inspiration for a worthwhile post. Thankfully, I feel as though the month-long hiatus is officially over.

This weekend, Lily, the mini-daschund that lives with me(see other posts for a more in-depth look into her ridiculous cuteness), has wanted nothing more than to cuddle up as close as possible and in the most uncomfortable positions at that in order to simply be near you as she sleeps. This got me chewing on a metaphor as I currently feel I'm being thrust into an "uncomfortable" time in my uncomfortable, I mean out of the norm...allow me to elaborate.

I must assume now as my roommate has officially signed a lease for her and her fiance, that it is my undeniable lot in life to be a gypsy (one inclined to a nomadic, unconventional way of life). That's right kids, April must move again and this my friends if you can believe it will be the 12th time I've had to move in the past 5 years. This is making me uncomfortable. Perhaps this go around, I'll narrow my list of candidates to the absolutely, un-datable...even better! Just kidding...but seriously!

Squeezed in between my worrying about where to live and who to live with if that, I've had to worry about a recent pay cut at work and some other transitions that have managed to weasle their way in to the good ol' worry machine.

Needless to say, but I'm gonna say it anyway...there is alot of junk changing. Back to the metaphor...I realized as Lily layed there in the most uncomfortable of positions, how unbelievably peacefully she was sleeping simply because she was near me...nay, near someone who takes care of her.

I need to be Lily in this scenario and the "me" in this methaphor is and always should be God. Call it an "after school special" moment, but it became clear to me that I haven't been resting peacefully in my provider's arms. Regardless of how uncomfortable my position may be, it shouldn't matter, because I get to be near the God of the Universe, right?!


Looking forward to some peaceful sleep.



Anonymous said...

I'm sorry you have to move again. I know it must be frustrating!

Leah Dooley said...

God continues to amaze me at His capability to bring it all back to Him. He never stops using EVERYTHING GOING ON IN OUR LIFE to draw us nearer and dearer to His sweet side. I am so sorry that you have to move (although you did see this coming you know ;), but I just wonder what's around the corner for you. Pay cuts stink..but at least you have a job still! Amber lost hers on Monday b/c her company layed off an entire department.

I miss you. You are precious to me. God is providing.

Thanks for your sweet words of encouragement about those crazy Dooleys being Christ centered. We try. Fail mostly, but try! Much love.